Alpha Male

Head tilted sideways,
belly up, wild eyes
darting back and forth
to points only god-
forsaken souls can
glimpse upon as they
desperately try
to focus, to fix-
ate on life. Exposed
jugular awaits.

The smell of defeat
rises with the last
relinquished sense of
hope released by fright.
Tastes like victory

to you.  Questions swell
alongside your pride.
Is this what you want?
Are you happy now?
Content to live as
alpha male? Is your
ego satisfied?
Is it lonely there
at the very top
where fear, not love, reigns?

~ smj

(re-write from original haiku)

Never Again, by Nickelback

You don’t know me, but…

You don’t know me
but
I’m the one that got away
away from you
away from me
away from reality
Only to come crawling back
(to reality, not you)
before you even missed me

You don’t know me
but
you might think you do
or not
Either way you don’t
and, you never will
you never really had me
you never really got me
so, you can’t really lose me

You don’t know me,
but,
I’m the one that broke your heart
that wasted your time
that ruined your life
that hurt you so bad
but you don’t see
how much you hurt me
so, I guess, we’re even there

You don’t know me
but
it’s okay
it’s better this way
you might thank me some day
or not
Either way
we’ll all be okay

we’ll all be okay
we’ll all be okay
we’ll
all
be
okay.

~ smj

 

Moving In Stereo & All Mixed up, by The Cars…
(best listened to cranked up with headphones!)

 

alpha male

head tilted sideways
belly up – jugular waits
is this what you want?

are you happy now?
content to live as alpha
ego satisfied

questions, like pride, swell
is it lonely at the top?
where fear, not love, reigns?

~  smj

can you hear me now?

Silent screams echo

with resounding denial

Can you hear me now?

One Step Ahead

 One step ahead
Always one step ahead
of you

Looking out
Always on the look out
for you

Stepping into traps
trying to warn you
But, you never listen
to me
Why?

Just seeing me bleed
doesn’t cut it for you
does it?

No, you need to feel
the steely blade for yourself
See your own blood
Feel your own pain
Because you can’t see mine
Can you?

And even as you bleed
blood, pain and confusion
your more surprised
than anything
Aren’t you?

Not that the trap exists
but because you realize
I was right all along
How can that be, you wonder
How?

Yes, eventually
 you will believe me
Even if you don’t want to
You will

Eventually, you’ll have to
Walk where I walked
Worry my worries
Bleed red blood
Just like mine

Eventually, you will see
the truth
That I tried so desperately
To lay out before your
closed eyes and
closed mind

Eventually, you’ll catch up
to where I was coming from
Finally
You reach for me
only to find
I’ve already quit this race
Where there are no winners
Only bleeders

 

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