Posts tagged ‘self’

April 13, 2021

Are we positively stronger yet?

I saw a writing prompt just now, when I was mindlessly scrolling positive memes instead of working, looking for some inspiration…. The prompt was,

What would someone say to you right now to make you feel stronger, and more positive?
Write it down. Then, say it out loud to yourself“.

I rarely do writing prompts… in fact, lately, I rarely write… but, as usual, I always think I should be.
Anyway, this sounded interesting… and easy enough. So? Let’s see what this prompts if I just… start… writing…
What WOULD I like someone to say to me? Hmmmm….
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Hey Sam. How are you doing? I know you don’t think anyone really cares right now… or that it doesn’t really matter anyway, but I mean it. How ARE you? I care. I want to know that you are not just putting on some kind of a facade… falling into old patterns… pretending to be something, someone, you are not. You’re not doing that, are you? I don’t think you are, but it’s sometimes hard to tell with you. I know you are really good at seeming like you don’t have a care in the world…. Like, you don’t really need an ego boost or care what anyone thinks. You come off like you are already strong enough to hold your own and then some… But, I also know that is not always the case.

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November 7, 2020

Writer, heal thyself

I need to just start writing, before I don’t. Now is not the time to think of a catchy title (Titles were never my forte anyway). Now is not the time to think about all the things I SHOULD be writing about. I can’t worry about spelling or what anyone else might think if they read this. I can’t even think if I will even post this or not.

I

just

need

to

write.

Before I don’t. Again. Before I put it off. Again. Shit, I listened to a meditation on my “Calm” app this morning about “procrastination”. I decided I was finally going to start using that app, and really try to get into meditating, and THEN, I was GOING to actually come here and WRITE something. Anything, I told myself. Started the 10 minute meditation, and then 2 minutes in, I actually paused it because I could not stop thinking that I should really go feed the birds first. ? LOL As I walked away, I realized I was PROCRASTINATING doing the session on procrastinating. ?!?

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May 9, 2012

slip crawl

slip away – crawl back

to and from myself, and you.

story of my life

~ smj


“I’m so tired of being tired
Sure as night will follow day
Most things I worry about
Never happen anyway”
~ Tom Petty, Crawling Back to You

August 12, 2011

Awakening…

I woke to the sound of my own head
pulsing in perfect time with my clock’s second-hand.
Together we  tick,   tick,  ticked
so loudly we woke
the neighbors
and some dead

but not you.

You were too busy feigning sleep,
unable to hear my ticking over the white noise
roaring as it flowed with the static
of your alarm clock radio
sounding off
through your head.

Hit the snooze again.

~ smj

“Children, wake up
Hold your mistake up
Before they turn the summer into dust”
– Wake Up, by The Arcade Fire
(from the “Where The Wild Things Are” movie)

August 2, 2011

Learning to Fly…

“Can’t keep my mind from the circling skies
Tongue-tied and twisted just an earth-bound misfit, I.”
– from “Learning to Fly”, by Pink Floyd…

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I’ve been procrastinating again.  Putting off writing in this blog… or writing anywhere for that matter.  Why?  Why do I do this to myself, when I know that writing is something I not only enjoy doing, but feel compelled to do?  I know that writing things out helps me think things through.  It helps me vent and it helps me feel more clarity and grounded.  I know it may be difficult to believe that, when I tend to write in random babbling circles…  but, somehow it’s true.  I’m happier when I write regularly.

Not writing is almost like punishment. 

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